I wish I was completely different

First of all, I wanna say that yes, I know I might sound whiny, I know I'm not the only one at all dealing with these problems. I just wanted to write about it to try and see if I'd feel better.

I'd say that my life is pretty normal, I really shouldn't have anything to complain about, but i still feel like there are many things that I don't have and that make me feel very disappointed in myself. Many things starting from my body, sorry if I sound like a whiny brat, I know fully well that 1)my lifestyle is unhealthy and 2)that it takes real effort and not simple magic lucky genes for someone to be healthy, in fact I don't really wish for an instantaneous thin body, what I really want to have is willpower, something that I think is much stronger and will allow me to do pretty much anything that's on my mind (getting in shape, talking to people, etc.).

The second thing might be a little controversial so please read carefully, I sometimes wish I wasn't gay, not because I'm bullied by people because of it, actually I should feel really lucky to be born and raised in an environment in which being LGBT is not considered bad at all. But my own stupidity and jealousy makes me feel miserable everytime I look at a couple, this is another reason why I can't really bring myself to watch romance movies, a bit pathetic I suppose.

There are many other things like I wish I was smarter, i wish I had a beautiful face, i wish I had actually interesting hobbies and passions like everyone else. But I don't want to make it too long, I feel like you get the point. Again, I'm sorry if this post sounded like another whiny brat complaining about his life, but I'd be glad to hear your own thoughts and maybe the things you wish you could change about yourself. :)