Ex-Jw isolation and devastation

I am fighting a panic attack over the far reaching consequences of being raised a JW and just need somewhere to vent before I absolutely break.

DH was laid off (yay, tech layoffs) months ago and we are now facing the loss of our house- that we just recently bought to escape JW family and live our life with our children freely.

We have no family, no friends, no connections to network with, because that wasn’t allowed.

I have no education and no work history, having been the ideal ignorant pioneer SAHM raising mini JW bots.

I don’t know what to do. He’s submitted over 1000 applications and no offers. I’ve applied for the only jobs i’m qualified for and gotten no responses. I’m trying to sell stuff online and not getting much traction. I’m about ready to give only fans a shot (not even kidding)

Where do people go if they lose their house and have nowhere to go? What about my kids? I’m so scared my insides constantly feel like they’re shaking and my chest is tight and heavy nearly all day every day. But I smile and pretend all is well so my kids are ok.

I wish I had family. I wish DH hadn’t been guilted into avoiding all socializing and networking events.

To be clear, I am absolutely not asking for help besides that of a listening ear that may understand. If you read this, thank you.