Tied up and unable to protect my holes [26F]

My FWB is aware of some of my kinks but since sharing on Reddit, I decided to discuss some of the experiences I’ve had. This was the first time I’d shared the darker details of my sex life with anyone irl and seeing him get more and more turned on learning about even the more traumatic experiences I had (like my breakup with my ex) was fucking hot. I loved that he was getting off on my most degrading, humiliating, overwhelming experiences. He already knew I had some intense kinks but he definitely realised he could push me a lot further than he had been.

So the last time I went over to his place, we had a major session. He made me strip, got a marker and wrote ‘CUM DUMP’ on my face (one word on each cheek). I’d told him about how much I liked the few times I’d been written on before so it was a nice touch. Then he pinned me against the wall at the corner of his room so I couldn't turn my head or move it back and he just fucked my throat. It was completely overwhelming and I couldn't breathe, I thought I was going to pass out so many times that night. I was pushing him back and he wouldn't stop until he decided to give me a break. I choked on my own drool the first time but I made sure I stayed there until he was satisfied I’d endured enough to be his cumdump that night.

After he came on my face, he told me to get on his bed. He restrained me so I was kinda starfished out - hands and feet attached to each post of his bed. It was an intense feeling, how exposing and vulnerable it was being splayed out and restrained like that. I’ve had guys pin me down, hold me in place, etc but I hadn’t tried actual bondage before so it was new and hot. Then he started working my pussy with his fingers. At first it felt amazing, he use a couple fingers to stroke my g spot but he added another finger, another, until I realised he was trying to fist me. It hurt so I was trying to squirm away from his fist pretty desperately, and I was instinctively pulling on the restraints. That’s when I truly realised that I wasn’t going to be able protect my holes, and I was going to have to lay there, with cum on my face, and endure it while all my instincts screamed at me to make it stop. That realisation actually ended up making me squirt for the first time ever.

He has some fetishes himself, his major one being conditioning feminists. So he had me beg him to fuck my feminist ass and to make me his stupid worthless cumdump. I love being made to feel worthless for and by men so I did a pretty good job verbally degrading myself 💗And I usually don’t cum when I’m with a guy, I just endure as much as I can and make myself cum to the memory, but I actually came again while he was in my ass and he just used me through it until he came. It was another unique experience for me bc once I’d cum, having him pound my ass felt really objectifying - I really felt like a piece of meat, strung up, on display, getting my ass used after my pussy was ruined, unable to do anything about it.

It was overall a really incredible experience!