vent on her leaving me

we spent months talking and i gave her all my energy. i responded anytime i saw her message, made friends with her friends, listened when she needed help, and spend hundreds of dollars on her gifts, but she left me on delivered for hours even though she was active and left me on read a couple times. i went to her about this problem about it feeling unreciprocated and she said she would try and hardest and apologized, but that she wasn’t ready for a relationship and asked if i would wait for her. i agreed to wait as long as it takes, then the next day she dropped me. her closest friend told me she started losing feelings like 2 weeks in and waited months to tell me she’s not interested in a relationship with anyone, but she played it off as saying she just figured it out. she said she wanted to focus on mental health which is completely valid but i can’t help i feel i got played since it took her so long to tell me this. 2 of her closest friends know the whole situation and are disappointed in her and went to her saying she did exactly what she said she wouldn’t do. her closest friend was over at my house (and she knew this) when she told me so i had a breakdown in front of her and her other best friend asked me how i was doing so i told him the truth. at first she was saying how lovely and wonderful of a person i am, but she’s now calling me a “bitch” and says i act like a “victim” to her friends and i don’t think i’ve ever done anything to warrant a response like that. she’s mad i talked to her friends about it but i told her friends “i feel weird talking to her friends about this. even though she did me wrong i don’t want this to affect your perception of her just like how i don’t want this whole situation to affect our relationships with each other.” i understand why she would get frustrated by this completely but like they both came to me first about it and asked me how i was feeling and if i needed to vent to anyone. now she’s telling them in only friends with them to get back at her which is not the truth at all i genuinely like them and want to be their friend. this whole thing was just a lot more stressful than it needs to be and honestly i really hope she gets the help she deserves.

i don’t think i’ll ever find love cause i can do everything right and it’s still not good enough. i told her i would wait for her, slowed down when she wanted me to slow down, and showed more affection when she wanted more. she asked for more affection so i gave it to her, and now she’s saying “i felt trapped and uncomfortable”. i just don’t understand cause she literally asked for more and i’m not a mind reader.