I can’t find a solution to my current situation (debts, jobless, illegal inmigrant, breakup, sick parents) other than dying

I literally have no money to pay my rent due in two days, no job. Can’t work cause my permit is expired.

I will probably become an illegal inmigrant within a month if I don’t renew my permit (I don’t nt have the money for that).

I don’t want to go back to my country- I was so unhappy and felt like I didn’t belong or have freedom.

My recent ex-boyfriend promised me the world but then abused me a lot and dumped me like trash and started dating another woman days after.

My father has prostate cancer and bone methastasis to his whole spine and ribs. My mom had a stroke three years ago and has to take a lot of meds and the left side of her body doesn’t have muscle strength. It hurts a lot seeing them suffer and not being able to help them financially to cover their medical expenses.

It’s a lot to deal with and might be the worst time of my 27 years of life when I had dealt with so many horrible bouts of anxiety and depressive episodes. I’m not sure if I will actually harm myself, but I keep saying to myself both in my mind and aloud “I want to die” “I want to shoot myself” and thinking of jumping off my bedroom window.

I’m terrified of what’s to come for me. There might be a solution for all of this but , unfortunately, I can’t see it. And the only thing that comes to my mind is disappearing of this world.