I think i’m starting to hate my boyfriend.

  My boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years. We are both 20. He was the sweetest most charming, hardworking, straightforward, and determined man. 

   We fell in love and ended up moving in together before we were “official”. The past year and a half have been horrible for me. He seems to have shown his true colors. He always wants to argue, or start something. Once I told him that, all he ever does is argue. He flipped on me. Screaming at me telling me to off myself. Hoping I OD (at the time I had drug problems in which i have overcome now).

 We moved past that. Now he doesn’t listen to me, barely responds when I talk to him, is extremely disrespectful toward me, when I try to have fun with him he just sits there in his own world. We used to karaoke together a lot, when I try now he just sits there awkwardly. which is so embarrassing for me. 

  When i try talking to him about it, it goes no where. He just gaslights me and tries to flip it to make it my fault. He seems to be putting 0 energy into us. And just the other day, my best friend of 5 years messaged me. (we stopped talking due to relationships). I asked my boyfriend if its okay if I respond. and he flipped. He threatened to kill himself. I have started feeling nothing toward him now. He still persists he loves me and wants to marry me. But his actions say otherwise. 

What do I do?