21 [M4F] #Anywhere - I'm looking for my favorite person to obsess with :3

Although I'm a bit possessive, jealous, obsessive and looking for my favorite person, I don't have BPD. However, the concept of finding a person that you could make a part of your life fascinates me; I find most 'normal' relationships boring because of the boundaries they have. I would prefer us to stalk, obsess and lose our minds in the thought of each other. Obviously, this will be a LDR at the beginning; and most likely stay that way like most LDRs, but in any case, I would be open to taking things further with the right person.

So, I guess I have to introduce myself now... I had a rough childhood, which made me cynical and weird in some ways. I suffered from anxiety and depression for most of my life, and even though I've mostly overcame it, I still feel like a part of me continues to bear those burdens. Over the years, I've also came to realization that I connect better with people who had tough experiences in life and are outside the norm.

I'm an introvert and don't have many friends so I could spare most of my time to my favorite person and make them the center of my life (if things get serious). Uh.. A lot of people say this kind of relationships are toxic, but who cares? There are a lot of things that could be considered toxic in normal relationships, too. If we both agree on it, why should it be toxic :3 Other than that, I enjoy reading books (psychology, philosophy, politics), cooking/baking, watching a lot of YouTube videos, occasionally playing video games, memes, watching anime and horror/murder/psychological thriller movies.. And, I'm planning to go to a culinary school next year. I'm also touch starved and have abandonment issues (what a surprise, right? lol).

If my post resonated with you in some way, please tell me why and introduce yourself in your message :)