I Have Permanently Destroyed My Self Respect

I’m a straight 20M. I go to college and have recently got a job i’ve had for a couple of months. I can drive and everything seems perfectly normally so far for someone my age? No.

I have a dark secret only i know and now all of you will do too. So let’s start. Well first before i get into everything, i have an addiction to pxrn and self pleasure to the point i do it excessively. So anyway whats with the title? I’ll cut to the chase. I have never had a SO, still a virgin. I’m not ugly per say, probably a 6/10. I don’t go to the gym but am average size and average height, not too tall but definitely not short. Anyway, i would say i’m introverted/extroverted, like a mix. I have 1 solid friend i could call a best friend. I never have chances or feel like i have the confidence to approach a woman. The pressure of everything and everyone around me progressing in their life and getting girlfriends having intercourse etc. really hit me. So what did i do? I visited an escort/prostitute earlier this year, and let’s say it was an experience i regret and somewhat enjoyed too somehow. So what did i do, i visited another the next day and spent a lot of my money too. Nobody knows. I promised my self i wouldn’t do something like that again, disrespecting myself and not following my morals, wasting money. Fast forward to today, i visit another escort/prostitute to fill my void of emptiness and loneliness temporary.

Now i’m just stuck with my self. Couple hundred cash down. Why did i do that? To fill my void. You disrespected yourself again? Yes i did. I permanently ruined my self respect and my self image of my self.

I don’t know myself truly. I’ve ruined myself and made myself dirty and disgusting. I feel ugly inside. I’m only so young and already so degenerate. Is there any saving someone like me? Please help.