suddenly binging in recovery

Really looking for a way to stop binging. I’ve been struggling a lot with recovery the past few months and all of a sudden i started binging almost every day and it’s making me feel even worse physically and mentally. I do it while my boyfriend is at work because he works during the day and i work at night. i’m so scared he will judge me because he understands that i have struggles with food but i’m so scared he will find my binges disgusting and unattractive because i’ve never really struggled with binge eating before. and now that there’s leftover halloween candy at the house i’m literally terrified i’m gonna go home from work, eat the rest of it while he’s asleep, and my bf will discover it in the morning.