Broke NC but I found the peace

I broke the no contact today but I felt I got the closure I needed. He said he fell out of love already and there is no future for us and the breakup was the right decision. So there it is, I got my closure, not a reason, not a what how why, but this is it. I felt calm after the call, sad, but calm and lost the desire to obsess over him again. I cried, but not because of him, because of me. I put his belongs all in bags, gonna wait for a few more weeks and text him to arrange pickup (theres a lot of clothing and stuffs he left behind and since he has financial issues, I want him to still be able to use them). I canceled all our upcoming trips, got penalities left and right (I paid most of them) but its Ok. I changed our joined gym membership accounts to myself only. Canceled the flowers scheduled to deliver to his dad in a couple weeks for his bday, not out of despite, but just dont think its appropriate for me to do that anymore.

I made plans with my friends this weekend and also started looking for a therapist (not to help me with the berakup, but overall issues since I felt like I fell into a pattern, always fell for the same type of guys and ended up getting hurt.)

I dont even think about NC anymore because I found my inner peace. We dont belong together.

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