Gay but wanting to have a wife.

I'm gay but closeted. Yung hindi mo mahalata. I never had any relationships since birth, lalaki man or babae. But i must confess that I did have casual sex with men. But I never wish to have a man as my lifetime partner. Lately parang gusto kong magka-asawa ng babae. But my problem ay sa kama 'cause I have not tried having sex with a woman. So I am not sure if I can build a family just in case may babaeng magkamali na magkagusto sa akin. Any kind of opinion will be appreciated. Thanks.