Anyone else feeling just… lonely?

I’ve never felt like I had my own “person” meaning a best friend. Sure I have friends, close friends at that, but it always felt like others in the group were closer to each other than me. Especially after having kids I just feel brushed to the side by everyone. It didn’t bother me before but lately I’ve come to the realization that no one goes to me first for anything. There’s too many examples to name that would just make me sad to name them all. I go out of my way for so many people, I try to be inclusive and make sure I’m reaching out (even while having 2u2 at home) but it just goes unnoticed and never reciprocated. I don’t know, I guess this is just a rant. If you made it this far thank you for listening.