Losing patience

I had a day with my 13 month old today. We both woke up in a bad mood. Him bc…I suspect he’s teething but also bc he was extra tired today. Me bc I’m over it. Everyday he wakes early at 7 and points me downstairs and then points to the door to go outside. He wants to be outside 24/7 which is great but he won’t just run around on his own. I have to carry him even though he walks and he just points at everywhere he wants me to take him. It’s exhausting. If I don’t listen he throws a tantrum. I’m tired of it. Today it was 30 degrees out in the morning and I couldn’t take him outside in our pajamas. So the day was off to a horrible start. He eats terribly and tries to break out of his highchair to have me take him back outside. I can’t even eat myself! Anyway, I take it in strides but today I yelled. I feel terrible but he pointed at the door for the 100th time and I pointed at the door and shouted “Noo!” and carried him upstairs (and then he fell asleep bc like I said he was extra tired today.) I’m feeling really bad but I’m just soo tired. In general I was just short and cranky towards him today. And I’m feeling so sad about it. He is so cute and sweet. Am I a bad mom?