low libido & trouble initiating

please help, idk what to do :( i’m very new to reddit so am not sure if this is formatted right, looking for advice & reccomedations.

i (25f) am in the most amazing relationship of my life. i love my boyfriend (29m) more than anything & i know without a doubt that i want to marry him & spend the rest of my life with him. & i know he feels the same way. i am so incredibly attracted to him, he is 100% my type & there’s not a single thing i would change about him. he is also AMAZING in bed. without a doubt the best & it’s like that every time. we have amazing physical chemistry & a deep emotional connection. my bf is absolutely crazy about me; always makes me feel so loved, seen, beautiful, sexy, always hyping me up & doing everything he can to build my confidence & make me feel amazing. he showers me with love, praise, compliments, kisses, touches, he does EVERYTHING to make me feel so good.

here’s my problem: he is always the one initiating sex. i don’t understand what’s wrong with me & why i don’t have that initiative or thought to start things. it’s like it doesn’t cross my mind or when it does it’s such a quick passing thought that it doesn’t lead to anything. i love my boyfriend & i want to make him feel wanted & desired the same way he does for me. i want to initiate & have that higher drive that he does.

i feel so bad because he has ADHD too & his rejection sensitivity can get to him especially when he feels like i don’t desire him the same way or when i turn him down because i’m not in the mood.

some background: i’ve been on birth control (tri-sprintec) since i was 17 & didn’t lose my virginity until a handful of months after starting. i’ve briefly talked with my pcp about it a couple years ago & she said my birth control could cause a lower sex drive but is it really making it this bad? this has been an issue in previous relationships where i didn’t feel a high sex drive but thought it was bc the sex wasn’t very good.. but now that the sex is amazing i feel like it’s a me problem & i don’t know what to do to ://

ladies please help, has anyone else experienced this problem? is it adhd, birth control, or am i just crazy??

TLDR: i love my boyfriend & the sex is amazing, so why is my sex drive so low??