Why is it always the same?

It's always a repeating pattern, always stuck in an endless cycle. I can't do it anymore. I want a way out. There hasn't been a single problem in my life that I've been able to overcome. I could never be normal. I can never do anything right. I've already wasted so much time and opportunities, why even put in the effort? Why continue living when I'm not satisfied with the cards I've been dealt? Why is it always the same?