I recently came out to my parents, regarding my attraction to Femboys. Due to my religious background, I suppressed and kept it hidden for a long time.

I'm pretty much turning 30. I'm gay and I find guys who look very feminine or who look like girls attractive. However, I grew up in a Christian household and for all these years, I tried to live as a celibate Christian; But now I can't take it anymore. As of recently, I have been pondering on my future and the thought of ending up alone terrifies me. I was taught growing up that being gay was a sin and this deeply affected me growing up.

Needless to say, this path has brought me nothing but emotional pain and left me mentally unwell. To the point of thinking of suicide. Eventually I just got tired, and decided to tell the two family members who I could trust about what was going on. To my surprise, both of their reactions were mostly positive, though not fully agreeing with the choice I have made and yet still loving me regardless.

I'm thinking of going to therapy, and all I want going forward is to find a Femboy to fall in love with and what have you. I hope that y'all can understand where I'm coming from and if you wish to share any advice or encouragement, please do so.