Should I still try to have children?

I’m 51 years old. I am a recovered addict and I’ve been sober since 2014. I grew up in an abusive family with an addict father. I have a child history of sexual physical abuse. Anyways, I’m not here to whine. He used to say it took me about 42 years and tons of therapy and recovery to become a stable person. I have a decent paying job. I’m a nice guy. I’m 6’6”, 222lbs, hazel eyes salt, and pepper hair. I’d be a great father. I never had kids and I’m grateful I didn’t have kids before as my life was a mess. I am in my second marriage now to a wonderful woman. She absolutely does not want kids. I thought I didn’t want kids. I realize now I actually really do. I have this fantasy that I will somehow find a way to have kids but maybe that’s something I should give up on? After all our choices in life automatically get rid of other choices.