how can i stop worrying about me in this reality?

this may sound bad at first but i KNOW this is what’s holding me back from shifting. i just know it, i know it so trust me on this.

i am on the spectrum of autism and one of my traits is that i can’t go a day in my life without planning everything to the dot. i also predict and expect exactly how things go and from then on i expect it to go that way and never any other way because i’m usually right based on pattern recognition and being used to patterns and how life goes.

now, because of this, when i try to shift, i expect to wake up in this reality and not ever shift. i unintentionally make plans for the next day and how my day will go, what time i want to wake up and when i want to do work. i make this an intention and i end up waking up in this reality, as expected and intended, and do my normal schedule, as expected and intended.

i’ve tried for months tog eat out of this habit but i can’t. i stress when i don’t have a plan and i’ve really tried to expect to wake up in my dr, i’ve tried to make the intention of not planning tomorrow, i’ve said affirmations out loud that i don’t need plans, i don’t need to worry about this dr, i’ve tried making plans when i wake up in my dr and what i’m going to do, eat, buy in my dr and focus on my life in that dr as i do here, but the lingering fear and thoughts of what i’m going to do in THIS reality prevents me from ever focusing on my dr properly and forgetting about this reality and all my worries in this reality.

how can i get out of this schedule? these expectations? these predictions and these intentions? how can i finally focus on my other life and not worry about this one with peace in my mind?