My (F 21) Boyfriend (M 25) Tells Me To Shut My F**king Mouth

My (F 21) Boyfriend (M 25) Tells Me To Shut My F**king Mouth

For a little background, my boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years now. Our relationship was extremely rocky in the beginning. We always argued and screamed at each other. At the time. We were living at his moms house and he would kick me out in the middle of the night when I had nowhere to go in the freezing cold. He hasn’t done this in months and now we live elsewhere that I’m helping pay for, so he cannot kick me out. The kicking out has stopped but the belittling and horrible names have never stopped. He gets mad at me for almost everything. He always telling me to shut my f**king mouth and how “females are so delusional” and how I should just “shut the f up and listen for once.” I used to love him like no other. He was my world and I used to tell him I loved him like 30 times a day. Now, I don’t know if I do anymore. The way he speaks to me, I think I’m at my breaking point. He’s broken me mentally and I don’t think I can take it anymore. I’m so scared of being alone. I’d have to move back in with my mother and older sister. I’d be alone again. I’d be depending on my mom. I would be in a terrible terrible mental place. I used to sh and even made attempts growing up. I’m so scared I’ll go back to it. This man has broken me and he doesn’t even care. I’ve tried to talk to him but the only time he’s nice to me is when I give myself to him in bed. I’m scared. I think I still love him deep down inside and that’s the one last part still holding on. I want to break up with him, but should I confront him about his actions first and try to let him fix it?