42 [M4F] Bets girls and reverse findom

This one is for the girls that never quite cut it. Never quite fit in, as hard as you tried.

And you did try. You tried emulating the pretty, popular, confident girls. Tried to tame that weird hair, tried to learn what fashion was, make-up. You even tried to copying the way they spoke and talked to each other. Wow was that an embarrassing mistake. The look on their faces when you tried to slip into their little group is burned into your brain. You spent all the money you made from your summer job on that make-up pallet to only use it that once.

Smacked firmly back in your place you retreated into "just being yourself" as a coping strategy. So what if you're a socially incompetent nerd who could barely speak to people or make sustained eye contact, and who dressed like she was trying to avoid detection. So what if you knew more about rocks or spiders or Harry Potter than you knew about whatever rapper was popular or what the Kardashians were up to. So what if you've never held hands with a boy let along touched his thing.. Everyone knows that vapid popular crap is temporary and stupid. You're smart and you're nice, and that's what the real world cares about. You're going to blossom one day and take over.

Yeah, no. Never happened. You didn't get prettier, cooler, sexier or more confident -- and the world didn't suddenly decide boring, weak, awkward, sexless try-hard women were suddenly great.

But now.. now you're grown up and you're starting to find real, genuine self-acceptance and peace. By accepting what you are -- a beta.

And isn't it freeing to accept it? It's not like you've given up on life. Quite the opposite. It's a miserable life pretending to be better than you are and constantly failing. Now -- having admitted to yourself that you're never going to be that sexy girlboss bitch out tearing it up with her equally sexy friends -- you can be true to yourself and focus on what can do. Give to your superiors.

"Superiors". It's a weird word to use, but some part of your brain has always seen certain people as "above" you. They just.. were. Either they're prettier, fitter, more motivated or successful, funnier, more social. Or just, something. Some X-factor. Somehow they're just more people than you are. Maybe they don't think they're loser, like you do. They don't feel beneath other people, like you do, and so they're not.

Whatever the reason, it feels so good to admit it. And now your real, happy life can begin. Because now you're not trying to be these people, and not try to reject these people.. you can finally, finally get what you really want. Their attention. Their praise. Their acceptance.

And god does it feel good. You get to talk to them and they respond! You get to gush and tell them how gorgeous and cool they are and they say thank you! You get to hear about what they're up to, what cool, sexy plans they have!

You even get to be a part of it!

Last weekend you had the most incredible date of your life. Beautiful new clothes, a car to the restaurant, dinner, drinks, bottle service at the club and a gorgeous hotel room with a huge spa, culminating in the hottest, dirtiest sex with all those new toys and restraints.. And you got to see it all over chat messages with pictures, just like you were really there. My girl loved it so much, and especially loved how grateful you were to be able to pay for it.

Ahh the beautifully rare straight male findom, female finsub. I absolutely adore the idea of a woman slowly accepting that she's beneath others and going from giving gifts to paying bills to eventually giving up all control of her money and finances to me.

Kinks: Findom, TPE, life control, humiliaton, discipline, outfit control, rules, tasks and punishments.

Looking for a conversation/chat and not a roleplay.