Eye contact epiphany

I just had an epiphany about eye contact and I don’t have anyone else to share it with but I had to tell someone!

So I never thought I had much of an issue with eye contact. Like, it didn’t make me uncomfortable (unless I was having BIG emotions), but I just saw a comment on a video about unmasking where someone said they can make eye contact but if they do they have way lower comprehension. And it was like, bam! That’s exactly me. If I’m focusing really hard on what someone is saying, I have to look away. Like if my boss is giving me instructions that I need to remember, I have to look away or I will not remember a single thing they said. I think this is part of why I prefer not to make eye contact when I’m having deep or personal conversations with someone, because if I’m making eye contact I’m not listening to what they’re saying and that feels disingenuous.

Anyways, hope someone can relate!