Welp life is shit and i dont think i want it anymore

Well to be honest, i tried loving, but in the end i am alone, literally no one comes around and ask how i am, Not family or friends doing so. Dating is the worst for me, i had my relationships but in the end it brooke off or i got cheated on, and when i posted stuff either here or on Dating sites people messaged me and said they are interested but Well, let's be honest they just Start to ghost anyway, ar least in my case. So i am literally alone with everything. I lost people this year i was close with to suicide, i lost family members in which case i didnt get told until the actual burial by any one. And yea it doesnt go right for me at all never did. I want it to end but, Well relationship is off the table cause no one wants to bother talking to me for a long time. Friends and family ignore anything until i Do something and then be like "oh why didnt you say something". To my conclusion i am neither wanted or needed by any one i know. So i wont bother taking care of my life anymore, if i die i die if Not then i couldnt care less. I just wish it to end.