30 [F4M] #CA - Successful educated ginger, married in dead bedroom. Can't stop thinking about making children and it's melting my mind.

In a very loving relationship with an amazing man, who, due to a recent medical event, can no longer engage in certain activities (please do not ask the specifics of this private event). We're still mourning this happening, but I still can't get breeding out of my mind.

I think constantly about the entire process of creating a life. I want to make excellent children -- ones that will be an asset to society and the world. Helping a man pass on his bloodline.

I think about the traits I want the child to have, how I'll select the father to have those genetic traits. High intelligence and IQ, strength, health, compassion, and preferrably fair hair/eyes/skin -- having ginger kids is an insane fantasy of mine. Then, what the moment will be like when we make love and life is made inside of me. How he'll adore my body as it grows and changes. And the joy we'll both have when we can finally see and hold the amazing, excellent life we made together. And then do it all over again.

I know that this is unlikely to happen, given recent events. But I dream of making excellent children constantly.