I feel like my life is over before it even actually began [rant]

I was in a car accident two months ago, and I got a grade 3 DAI. I may have made dumb choices to get into that car, but I had zero idea that a crash would happen. I’m barely 21 & feel like my life is completely over. I don’t socialize (because I feel like a repeating burden on everyone I do talk to), I feel like I don’t even have a personality anymore, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to like anyone enough to even date or marry them & no one will like me. Who even wants to be with someone who has as much as a disability as I do?? I wont make friends, or friends who wont just feel bad that I got into this accident. Where even would I? I wont ever be able to be a nurse like I wanted (and was about to) go to school for… OR work in the medical field OR work at all. I feel so stuck in my room & in my head always. I go to the therapies I need to & to counseling, but other than that I just want to lay down in bed & be here. Which I don’t even want to be anywhere. I honestly wish I died on impact instead of being here like this with a fucked up brain. I feel like I’m such a burden on my mom since obviously she’s the one making & taking me to all of my appointments. I probably won’t even be able to learn how to drive because I can barely do the fucking dishes! I can’t even cry about any of this because I think I don’t have that much emotions left anyway. Sorry for ranting, this is probably gonna go to the void anyway. It’s just FUCK living.