andrew tate stole my man

i (24F) and him (27M) have a 6 month old. prior to this pregnancy i was pregnant maybe 4-5 months before and had an abortion, something that depressed me and i thought i would never do and did and regretted it. we have been together 2 years and after the abortion he started with the tate stuff, thinking he should have multiple wives (not muslim), then decided he doesn’t want to get married so he thinks he can Nick Cannon it. he always talked about it in a way that was in the future if he had the financial status. it went from little mentions and saying “oh that makes sense” and relating it to things to full fledged “this is what i want this is what i deserve” before i got pregnant again it was still pretty mild and eye rolling followed by comments from me like “i think u should have what u want i’m just not interested in having that” like i said i should’ve left. i made it very clear many of times that i would leave if i caught him with a girl. for some reason i thought that bc of what he was saying he would tell me when he was interested in doing that and he wanted to look and i would say no and leave him. (to be fair he told me he would bc i asked him) but of course that didn’t happen DUH.

i feel so stupid writing this but honestly i was so depressed and not like myself after that and extremely low. then i got pregnant again and i’m sorry but i’m not leaving someone while pregnant /just giving birth based on what ifs , i couldn’t emotionally handle it .

oh did i mention he pays the bills and i don’t work , i’m graduating next month with a Finance degree so i’ll be working but he supported me while i finished college.

i appreciate that he did that but i he wants me to repay him with a life i don’t want.

now on to the cheating …… i’ve had instances where i’ve seen sneaky weird stuff but nothing concrete. welp i looked at the lock screen of his phone, NEVER went through his phone before , technically still didn’t, but still counts lol. typed the # into cash app and boom saw it was a girl. i asked him , he lied for a few days until he finally admitted that he’s been talking to her for 3 MONTHS and has feelings for her…..

yeah, this… fucking… broke me.

he wants to stay with me though and their relationship doesn’t affect ours … i also know he’s cheating with others obviously.

now i’m moving out, with no job and 1 month before i graduate with a 6 month old and am terrified i can’t financially make it. he says he’ll help me but i’m so afraid of the lack of security. i’m sure this was his goal to make me rely on him.

anyone else went through this before? this is seriously got me question God like WHAT DID I DO lol