Start of day #3

Day #3 (start of day)

First off I am sorry to the one person that dm me that is going through the same addiction with onlyfans just like me. They deleted their account when I was going to see how they are doing this morning.

I did log on to Onlyfans. I honestly watched a contest creator life stream. But I thought it was stupid, tipping her to masturbate and do things on the live stream. I kind of felt sorry for her and the people watching. So I logged off. I did not fab, I was tempted but I didn’t.

The pact i made with the person on dm still stands. If i log in at all before Dec 13,2023 I must delete my account and lose the $1100 worth of content I have purchased. Yes I know I should delete it. I just don’t have the heart to do it yet.

Once I get my next paycheque from work I will install the No Nut App asap on my phone.

Social Media: Instagram, I am okay, but instagram always recommends the hottest girls based on what I was following before. Which almost triggered me last night. So I will have to just not log into Instagram. If I log in before Dec.13 to my mentors/people that inspire me account, I will delete that account as well. I just have people like the rock, etc. no influencers models etc. on that account.

I don’t have the temptation on my iPad or Mac. I have never looked at porn on my Mac, iPad since I first got a Mac in 2005-2006. That record is still intact being porn free on those devices.

It’s the lonely nights, or when I am bored.

The struggle is real. When I don’t have work to distract me. I get home and start to feel depressed. With Christmas almost here. It makes me feel worse. Wishing I had a women in my life.

Thankful I see my therapist in December. But that’s in 15 days from now ☹️

Today will be another battle! My next post will be after day 4, start of day 5.

So I will be back here Saturday December 2, 2023