Discord is ruining my life

I wasted 2 years of my life with online friends . I feel these online friendships aren’t real . I constantly feel like people are talking about me because of the amount of gossiping . My anxiety is worse . I feel I had enough of chatting to people 247 . A lot of mentally ill people irrational people I talk to . I put off important things I stopped prioritising myself . I think online friendships are self serving people just want someone to talk to anyone really . I feel pathetic having online friends and how I stopped putting myself first .