AM I BROKEN?

Hey guys, I have really fucked up my mind by abusing PMO for the last 10 years such that I can't even sleep anymore. I am almost 23 years old and I can't sleep. For the first 6 years of my addiction, I would be able to sleep day 3 or day 4 into withdrawal before I ultimately would relapse.

Now however, I have hit day 12 numerous times this year and still don't fall asleep. What's worse is, the first 6 years of my addiction I used to feel tired the next morning if I didn't sleep at night. But now for the last 2.5 years i have not slept a single night but have energy as if I've been sleeping no problem. I LITERALLY DO NOT EVEN YAWN ONCE IN A DAY, FOR 2.5 YEARS!

I have deep black eye bags under my eyes that have not gone away in the last 2.5 years.

I have tried melatonin, magnesium, and other sleep aids and not using my phone at night and nothing works.

Does anyone know when I will finally be able to sleep 8 hours?

After day 3 I don't feel urges but I'm not stimulated at all by anything.

It doesn't help I don't have any friends or hobbies to distract me either. I made a gym subscription last year and went two months before i ultimately started to injure myself (not due to form but due to insomnia - i wasnt recovering despite having a good diet cause sleep matters too) My condition has worsened substantially since 2021.

Idk wtf to do anymore in life. I'm devastated and broken and lost. Please someone shed some light on this issue of Insomnia.