Got bullied today

I don’t want to go to school Monday I’m so tired. I literally mind my own business and stay away from people but they look at me and decide to say stuff and I’ve tried to defend myself in the past and I got jumped and Ive talked to my counselor and even the principal who had a meeting with one of the guys and then sent an email out about no bullying but it still happens. I realized no one will protect me and anyone can say or do anything. They might mess with me or try to scare me and actually harm me who knows. I just feel sick to my stomach I hope this feeling will go away tomorrow. I even yelled at my mom when she was just trying to get me to eat and I slammed the door. She cried about it to my stepdad and I came out and apologized to her. My stepdad looked angry but he asked if I’m ok because I’m usually quiet but I didn’t tell him bc he’s gonna be ashamed his teenage son can’t defend himself. I just feel like I’ll always be a loser and I’m trying to keep my head up but today was the worst and even gaming isn’t helping. I keep breathing hard and shaking and crying and pacing around like what do I do bro