Pharmacy issues are making me feel manic

I was supposed to get my meds (Wellbutrin and Adderall) delivered on Tuesday according to my psychiatrist (for some reason in order for my meds to go through my insurance they need to be delivered from the pharmacy because they are a controlled substance. And I have to be home to receive them. My country is so frustrating sometimes). My dose has changed and I have been taking the wrong dose for a bit in the interim (as suggested by my doctor).

I called yesterday to ask what was going on and the pharmacy told me that it would be sent out tomorrow (aka today, Friday) and I mentioned I needed it here before 5pm because I won’t be home then. I asked her to call back to confirm this would be doable, she half said ok and hung up on me. Today I receive no communication about my meds, call again, and hear they never went out and I’m now out of Wellbutrin and Adderall. I feel like I am going nuts out of frustration and my breathing is heightened. I haven’t been sleeping super well or having much of an appetite and I feel like I’m losing my mind right now.

Anyone have any suggestions on how to talk myself down? I am so mad I could punch a wall right now - mostly because I hate how my ability to be okay relies on medication that others need to approve. I am so frustrated with my brain and that it needs three different medications to act ok, and the fact that I might not have them for a few days and am spiraling is wild to me.

Ugh, thanks for reading if you got this far. 😭