Lost my virginity not sure how I feel, help?

Hey guys I’m 18 and last night I lost my virginity at a guys house. He’s a lot older than me but he’s pretty handsome.

I’m struggling a lot with my sexuality right now and I was wondering if someone could help me with my thoughts.

1. I’m attracted to guys all the porn I watch has guys in it never girls, but for some reason the sex didn’t feel as good as I thought it would

2. While he was fucking me I wasn’t really into it or turned on very much. It made me really scared that I might not be gay

3. I’m not sure how I feel about it and I’m kind of freaking out, he is a super sweet guy and we’re good friends now but he was really intense as far as sex it was definitely consensual and he checked on me a lot so it’s not like he was taking advantage of me

4. I feel super shameful thinking about what my parents and friends would think if they knew what I did

This turned in to more of a rant but I’m seriously not feeling good about it and I was really hoping those of you who have been through this could help me

I’m really not feeling comfortable with my sexuality right now it feels like I’ll never find love