Graduating early

I am 34 + 2 with my first 🥹 my little one has been measuring small the whole time but has been doing well otherwise. This week, we had yet another scan to check growth where we were told she is now IUGR and I will be delivering at 37 weeks at the most due to placental insufficiency. I could also be delivering earlier if she fails an NST or the cord blood flow starts to show signs of struggle (we have both tests twice weekly now). 😢 I’m excited to meet her early but I feel like I’ve failed since I couldn’t keep her growing and give her nutrients. I’m also panicked that she’ll struggle on the outside and will be in the NICU for awhile. I just have a lot of emotions that I needed to get out to strangers, as the people in my life are overwhelmingly positive.