Suicide

Hello, I am here to ask for an easy way out and/or the most effective way. I think that I have done everything right in the book to get better, and I thought I was getting better since Thanksgiving. However, I found myself with the lingering feelings of "I am never going to get better," crying spells, and just the emptiness I feel. Usually, I am able to reassure myself and have positive affirmations that these are just momentary. But it has gotten unbearable, I just feel like a living burden and less than human. I have been in therapy for almost 8 years now, in and out. I feel like all the traumas I faced, and lack of human connection and loneliness and just the constant state of exhaustion has done it for me. I feel like I have done everything I can to get better too.