NHK Rant when drunk on new Years

Hey everyone, Im currently EXTREMELY DRUNK WHILE WRITING THIS so it doesn't matter what I say until Im sober. Congratulations Happy new years LMAOOO

I watched NHK this week and felt incredibly empty afterwards because I saw Satou as a potential pathway for my life even though I know for a certain fact that a Misaki won't show up to my room telling my that she can change me. I just want to let people know that NHK had changed my outlook on life and that maybe it is best to do what I enjoy the most.

I just want to know how people are doing on this thread and since I am 21, it would be awesome to know how people live their lives after watching welcome to NHK after this. NHK made me reflect on my darkest moments in life and that if my struggles in life are worth it after all. Misaki might not come after waiting, but thats fine, I just want to know what life can offer when you just want to live it the way you want it too. I currently live a miserable college life of not feeling fulfilled at all because of some wild childhood dream of becoming something greater than the majority of the population, but reality quickly stripped that away. NHK hit the rock bottom and even then, Satou seems to have some hope I believe.

Im really drunk, but if someone wants to also vent on their life, then I would be happy to read it.

Happy new years everyone