sana magbreak na yung friend ko at bf n'ya

I sound so toxic but whatever. Sana magbreak na yung friend ko at bf n'ya.

For context, me and my best friends have been friends for more than 5 years na. We basically surpassed the level of best-friendship at this point kasi we label eo as soulmates na. We know everything about each other. Lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay namin sinasabi namin sa isa't-isa, like literal na kahit pagkain ko ng agahan, updated s'ya and vice versa. We understood eo so well. Parehas din kaming type ng tao na hindi interested in relationships since we focus sa acads and we're always into fandoms. Pero last year, nagkaroon s'ya ng bf. The guy was a fucking narcissist. Manipulative, gaslighter, controlling tapos sa kanya pa nanghihingi ng pera. They broke up naman na and i was happy for her. Then she met this new guy na. I don't know much about him.

Back to the plot, I'm getting worried. Kasi she started becoming distant (again). Tapos hindi na s'ya nagsasabi or nagkkwento kadalasan. You might think na "Hindi ba pwedeng gusto lang maging private nung tao" or smth but it's different with her, especially sa past relationship n'ya. Ganun kasi s'ya nung sila pa nung ex nyang manipulative. The guy was being a dick all the time tapos pag kausap nyako, kontrolado lagi mga salita tapos pinapabango pangalan ni guy. Nagseselos din kasi yung ex nya sa'kin kaya ayaw nyang nag uusap kami. (My friend is bi.) Nung nag break sila, inamin nya sa'kin na hindi talaga sya nagkkwento sa'kin kasi ayaw nyang magalit ako sa ex n'ya and nahihiya sya sa'kin. That caught me off guard ngl but i understand where she's coming from. Pero I won't lie, it hurted a bit.

Isa pa, i have a long history of ex best friends leaving me pagnagkakaron na sila ng partner or nakakahalubilo nila yung "popular kids". I'm afraid na mauulit na naman yon and with her. I Don't want that. I want us to go back sa dati naming dynamic. Eversince rin kasi naging sila nung new guy, she's been acting different. Hindi na sya nakikisakay sa jokes ko or sa mga kwento ko. There's something wrong talaga. I feel like I'm talking to a stranger who knows everything about me.

(note: ignore the errors, kahit ngayon lang. thx •∆•)