Help me lose weight

Hello, I’m a 22 year old female. Before I get into the reason for making the post, please keep any negative thoughts to yourself. I already know I’m fat, lazy, and all the other names you could possibly think of, so don’t waste your time telling me something I don’t already know.

I weigh 320 pounds. I don’t work but am a stay at home mom to a 9 month old. Since I stopped working, I haven’t been as active as I used to be. I have no motivation to get up or do anything besides taking care of my baby. I’m lazy and would rather sit on the couch and crochet or watch tv or sleep. But, I want to change this, because I’m tired of being this way. I’m tired of being fat as hell and I don’t want to get any fatter than I already am. I am not active at all. I get out of breath going up and down stairs. Doing 30 squats in a row is enough to make my knees hurt, I have no stamina and barely any strength and I just feel like I’m just a huge fat blob who just let herself go. And I don’t want to be this person anymore. I don’t want to get to 350 pounds. I am fatter than I have ever been and I’m so ashamed of myself that I just hate my body. I hate it so much I’m disgusted with my own self.

My question is, what meal plan can I do that is healthy. I know which category is good and not good, but could someone just comment some easy to make meals that are healthy and nutritious that help with weight loss? Before you come at me and say that I shouldn’t eat so much, I barely eat the way it is. I eat once a day on average and it’s not a lot. I want to change this because I’ve put my body into starvation mode and it stores all I eat. So I need some easy quick meals that will help with my journey into losing weight.

I’d also like to know what types of exercises I can do (beginner ones) at home that can help me build stamina (because I literally have none) and then ones that can help with building strength while also helping me burn calories to lose weight. I also need you to dumbify it down for me because I have no clue what is what and I’m utterly clueless to working out (clearly or I wouldn’t be so fat) I just want to be a better me and want to stop feeling like a weak fat blob.