I hate him so much.

He says something shitty and then goes away instead of staying and apologizing and recognizing his mistake, its not fucking fair. Then I have to deal with him begging me to not leave him, I wanted to. But I don’t know what to do. It’s like he doesn’t truly care about me at all, all that “I love you more than anything” “I’ll do anything for you” fuck you. I hate you so much. I’ve always had to deal with your drinking, and your drunken messages. So many times you’ve promised you wouldn’t do it again, and how many times did you break those promises?

You’re a fucking leech sucking all my will to live and all my energy and I resent you for it. I wish I could tell you everything I feel, all of it. But even after everything I still care about your well being. I hate feeling so miserable, every night its the same thing, crying and overthinking. I wish I didn’t feel this way.