i want to quit porn

f18 i learned about porn at a very early age, which lead me to seek out more extreme and hardcore videos by my early teen years. i stopped watching and started reading it instead, but eventually i turned to videos once again. the videos couldn’t satisfy me anymore though because some of what i had been reading had been more extreme or fetishistic that what i had previously watched and i had to turn to porn subreddits which were more extreme. i feel so guilty when i watch porn because it is so degrading to women. i feel so guilty that as a woman i get off to other women’s pain. i usually start to feel bad about it within minutes of opening it, so i feel bad for hours about maybe 45 seconds of quick gratification. my boyfriend quit porn early on because it was so degrading to women. i wish it was as easy for me. i am worried that porn will begin to affect my sex life. i used to be able to masturbate without porn but i can’t anymore. i am afraid that if i keep watching i will be unable to have sex without thinking of extreme and hardcore porn. i would just like support or another woman who deals with this to talk to.