i was kidnapped and wrote a poem about it.

TW ! k^dnapping, sa, brainwashing, dr^gs. hi :3 i’m she/they 20 n about a year about i had a traumatic incident happen where i was kidnapped in the city i lived in. it was for a couple hours by a homeless man, and i was eventually found by my (ex) partner. a lot of really terrible things happened, like he forced information into me through brainwashing tactics, SA, forced hallucination drugs into my system, etc, and i kinda went crazy for a minute after i was saved tbh. the hardest part. the situation was so terrible and unique, i had no words for how to even approach it for a long time. the recovery has honestly been isolating and most of my loved ones don’t know how to approach me in this topic. they’re so kind, but this is a lot. i’ve wanted support and understanding, so i wrote a small poem. thank u for reading :) <3

My God

I’ve fallen asleep, awaiting to be awakened, taken from the street, patiently, awaiting for a sign of retreat, of his release. its my job, to keep the peace. as i slumber, i mumble for my god, patiently, awaiting for my release, my safety at a decrease, trying to convince him, my odds growing slim. Back and forth, oh please god, which way is north? In and out, suffocated by warmth, I try and shout, Real and fake, I can’t get out, am i asleep, or awake? Safe and in danger, what he’s saying is fake, he’s just a stranger, Free and taken, oh please god, when will I be, awaken?