i’m just so exhausted and need help please

i have no idea what to do, after being sexually abused for over six months consistently at 15 by an ex partner, i was diagnosed with ptsd and the thought of being sexually assaulted again was my biggest fear. the thought terrified me beyond belief to the point i never dated or pursued anyone for over 5 years. i had an updated mental health evaluation at 20 and was told i no longer met the criteria for a ptsd diagnosis. i am now 21 and recently got into a relationship (i am no longer in that relationship) where i was sexually and physically assaulted. i truly have no idea what to do anymore. i feel like everything i’ve done to work towards managing ptsd and just trying to live a normal healthy life has been completely destroyed. i can feel the ptsd symptoms that i hadn’t experienced in so long returning. i’m very afraid of seeking out a therapist because the last therapists i had didn’t take my assault seriously at all (due to me being a lesbian and people for some reason assuming women aren’t capable of assault and violence.) i am so depressed and always sick or exhausted or in physical pain, i’m about to get fired because i can barely bring myself to go to work (especially because this has caused me such fear of being around other people and in public and traveling in the dark) which also has lead to me barely making rent every single month as i still constantly have to continue to cut out necessities.

i just desperately need help and i have no idea what to do.