Feeling confused.

I’m 22. I’m in a phase that I’m trying to do my own thing. I dropped university and started working on my own “business” and at the same time I’m working at the family business. I’m unhappy at the family business but I need some extra money on the side that’s why I’m doing this. Besides that, I want to help my parents because they are getting old and it’s a very difficult job and it’s many hours too. I feel awful when I don’t go to work and stay home, like I feel guilty.

I’ve tried being more productive, I’m cleaning my room, I’m making my bed, I clean the whole house, I have time for my hobbies but I feel this unsatisfaction. Maybe it’s because my business goes veeeeeery slowly and I still have a lot of time to improve my skills on it and it’s kinda annoying. I’m also used to wait for immediate results so having to wait is a pain in the butt.

I don’t understand if I’m doing something wrong here or it’s all in my brain and I should relax a bit. I’ve went to therapy for a year but I didn’t find it useful, in matter of fact this guilt thing started from therapy. It never left since then. Not sure if I’m going for a burnout here.

I also compare myself to everyone else. I know it’s bad and I have improved in that a little bit. I have a life plan but it’s just going slowly and it’s driving me insane. I know I can make it but there’s always this but. Is it fear? Uncertainty? I’m not sure.