Help me! I’m struggling

Hey everyone!

So this is random but I’m struggling lol. I’m 22 from the UK and as far as anyone would know I’m a successful cis media exec with a hot gf. Since I was a kid I’ve had trans thoughts but always brushed them off, I’d always do the usual wear mums clothes and watch more girly things etc.

Over the past few years this feeling has grown stronger and stronger but I’ve always hidden it. My gf literally wouldn’t suspect anything at all.

Sometimes I go to bed on a night just wishing I’d wake up a girl, like it would be all I want. I’ll be at work and not be able to concentrate bc it’s all thats on my mind.

My parents are massive transphobes, as in massive! My gf is the same.

Whenever I see a trans person or hot girl in the street all I can think of is how I’d like to be her and what I’d do.

I’m also in a position where I’d be too embarrassed, like I know it sounds bad but yeah.

I’m just really not sure what to do at all, I love my gf to bits, and my family.

Sorry if this sounds like a ramble but it’s the first time I’ve really spoken about it but it’s almost 2am and I can’t sleep.

So yeah not sure what to do :/