Just venting I guess. I hate this so much. So much pain.

I'm just in so much pain. I have an endometrioma on my right ovary and it just never stops hurting. Surgery is scheduled for next month but I feel like if I wait that long I might actually die from pain alone (joking... kinda) so I'm meeting with my doctor today to hopefully move it up. I'm on SO much pain medication and it still feels like something is inside of me squeezing my ovary and my lower back with gloves made out of spikes and razors. And the fatigue is next level. Sometimes the pain and fatigue are so strong I feel like it's too much effort for me to speak. I'm a teacher and struggle with finding coverage so I'm currently sitting at my desk holding back tears while my students work. I just hate this so much. I've dislocated joints multiple times and have had multiple surgeries for endo... but this pain right now is unmatched (besides Pitocin-induced contractions... that was unearthly pain). I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else out there is experiencing pain in this moment so that we can be in misery together.