I want to make my message better before sending it to my friend

I feel pain for losing my friend. I won't give enough context but we had history together and i want connect after 2 months so trying to make my message more genuine as i suck as this .. here's the message:

" Hey , i hope you are doing well. I thought alot about sending this messege hoping it's not too late as i wanted to give you space.

i want to say that i wasn't a good friend since the breakup my insecurities , my fear and the overthinking got the best out of me . Before the fight i had a really bad financial and health issues ( our home got robbed) . and i didn't want to burden you because of what you have on your plate

i snapped after the call and didn't give you a chance i was literally blinded fr . Iam sure the fight isn't the case , right? . i know you resent me for stuff i did as there are layers and i really Would love you to open up about it whenever you are ready

I understand that you wanted distance and i wanted to be close still it's like two people on different islands with no communication . I was selfish i guess

I hope you give me a chance because iam better now iam aware of what i did and learnt alot . Can we see how to manage our friendship with agreed on boundaries in more of healthy manner because i think you know pretty well i will always value you as a person "