I have to brace myself

Recently my mtf/non binary partner has stopped their hrt treatment in order to try and get it through more by the books means.Theyve been on injections for more than a year and honestly its been a rollercoaster. More for me than for them i think. Especially the lack of sex drive has been hard on me (due to RSD, some weight gain on my part etc). Ive felt so heartbroken being rejected sexually. My mood is more dysregulated than ever before. Trying to figure out our new roles/new likes etc has been painstaking and often a source for tension. With them off hormones again, their drive is suddently increasing again. They are more engaged and flirt more. And i really dont know how to handle it. Its like ive gotten back what ive tried to work so hard to get over. Ive missed that ease so much and i dont know how i will react to losing it again.

And just to preface any tips to help libido medically. Non binary people seldom get good if any medical help in my country. You have to lie and tell them you want a full transition (you can get away with obting out of surgery). The health care is abysmal for trans people who want to transition too. Very rulebound and you have to travel to the oposite part of the country. It is horrendous how they can get away with treating people like that, but its something my spouse wants (controlling their levels will be so much easier) and i support it. I just think I need some support too without having to burden them.