Can't stop thinking about this sub

I've lurked here for a while now but never really thought too much about it until lately, every time I get turned on this is where my mind goes. I'm pretty left leaning so idk why I'm drawn here at all other than maybe morbid curiosity. The things you guys say are gross but I can't help but come here to see it.

Idk if I want to be converted or anything but I think I need to get it out of my system.