TW: Sex Trauma… How to move on to have healthy sex?

How do you move forward when your first sexual encounter was not consensual?

I find it to be years after the r-word in undergrad occurring to find myself either overly sexual with my partner or not interested in all.

I have found my self as a result of the experience being in my past relationships just giving my body to them and not being present in the act sometimes

Does it get better?