Reading bl

I found this subreddit today and some of the posts I read made me have a realisation. I’m a 19 year old nonbinary lesbian and I’ve always found myself gravitating towards romantic stories of gay men. This has caused me to feel very conflicted considering I’m a lesbian. But after finding this sub and going through the gl tags on some platforms I’ve realised that it’s pretty much all femme for femme. I think I’ve been gravitating towards bl not because it’s about men, but because it’s a story about two masculine people falling in love. I think I’ve not been very interested in most gl stories because they dont resonate with me as someone on the more masculine side. As much as this realisation is nice because I don’t feel like a walking contradiction anymore but it also made me very sad. There is basically no butch for butch rep anywhere. Have anyone else had a similar experience as me or am i just weird?