I'm a Muslim woman who has been engaging in adult cam work to make ends meet. In desperate need of advice

Salam brothers & sisters.

I am a 25 year old Muslim woman and have been on & off an adult webcam site due to me struggling financially. I never thought I would stoop to this - I'm incredibly ashamed & just don't know what to do. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

The background is that I moved out of my family home around 2 years ago with my younger sister. My mother has got severe mental health problems which means that she is physically & emotionally abusive.

Both of my brothers who are in their 20's have also both got severe mental health problems (psychosis/schizophrenia) due to childhood trauma.

I worked my backside off and saved and saved until I could move out. I knew I had to take my younger sister out of that environment as it just wasn't safe for either of us.

I was always a high achiever academically so enrolled onto a university course but all my depression & trauma caught up to me so I dropped out, didn't work for a few months and froze in depression.

As a result of this I got myself into a really bad financial rut which I still can't get out of even though I'm working full time.

I prayed & manifested for sustenance and had been able to get by but just barely scraping by each month. A large part of me is grateful that I had the necessary provisions to get by each month and I am fully aware there are people in other countries who are in much worse positions. But I suppose a part of me is also resentful that I am stuck in this hole.

I knew I had to do something quick to put food on the table for me and my sister so I got myself together and have been working for quite some time now but also signed up to a webcam site on the side.

No one who knows me would EVER expect this of me. I have a very high level of self-respect, I have not associated with any males aside from my ex-fiance and there is nothing in my character to suggest that I would ever do such a thing.

My peers & people around me always nickname me things like "princess" but little do they know I'm hiding an awful secret.

I would never do this if I felt like I had another choice but unfortunately I am desperate. The only option was to use 'pretty privilege' to make some quick money.

I am not fully nude nor do I perform any acts upon myself but I dress in sexy outfits and talk to men about their kinks in exchange for some quick extra money.

I always feel disgusting while I do it and have to practically drag myself up to my room to go on the site but at this moment in time I see no other options.

I work full time (40 hrs per week) and also pick up extra babysitting shifts when I can.

I live within my means but unfortunately I have accumulated some debt while I had a depressive episode that I just can't seem to get out of so I go on this adult site a few times a week to make some extra money.

I don't make a great deal of money as I'm not as explicit as the other women on there but I make enough money to cover some of my expenses ie bills & food.

I have not been on it for the past 5-6 weeks but I am now feeling a huge financial strain again. I simply will not go on during Ramadan and I have been wishing & praying for a way out but I just don't see one.

I know that God knows what is truly in everyone's heart but I just don't understand why things aren't falling in my favour. I honestly do not want to do this.

I am always actively looking for ways to make extra money in a halal way but unfortunately I don't have any options. The job market in my town is just dire and any options that I have come across don't fit around my job.

My plan was to utilise this site for a few more months until I clear my debt but I'm stuck in the middle. I don't want to do it but I don't see any other options.

I have already spoken to citizens advice and there are no family/friends who can help me. I'm just so stuck and just don't know what to do. Please advise guys?