Let me down

I feel I'm always posting stuff in reddit. Whether it's in self harm or whatever. I never put my mind truly out there. I don't know if I'm just some attention seeking loser or what.. Maybe I am simply because I'm lonely, I've got no one to offload to except for the internet. Pathetic right? I don't really know what I want to achieve by posting this.

I guess I'm reaching out to be let down again. I like the pain.